This shower was totally different from my first shower. I say that because the first one was thrown by my wonderful cousin/bestie, Tiffani. I basically didn't have to lift a finger when it came to the preparations. This one, I did. My mom, I love her, but she is not the baby shower throwing type. :) She's good at a lot of things, but planning a baby shower isn't one of them :) So, I admit, I did a lot of the work, and since everything was done in a very short span of time...I can honestly say, it wasn't the best, but I enjoyed myself and I think my guests did too.
Even though...if there was something that could go wrong, it probably did!!! :) My mom and aunt got on me about being angry and worrying because it could affect the baby. And, they are absolutely right, no question. But, throughout this pregnancy I have had a lot of ups and a lot of downs and emotionally, I've been all over the place. I pray that I haven't affected Zoe negatively in any way. And, while GOD doesn't give you so much that you can't handle things, I have to say that I've had my share of things these past 8 months.
Back to the shower...we set up the night before. All the decorations were set. The gift bags were prepared. The games were set (thanks to my wonderful cousin/bestie/hostess, Kimberly) and the centerpieces, a beautiful diaper cake and diaper wreath made by some of Derrick's coworkers, were prominently placed where everyone could admire them. The venue was a bowling alley party room. Unfortunately, the downside to having your shower at a venue like that is that you have to purchase their food. The only thing we could bring in was the cake and ice cream. But, I was even okay with that.
Saturday came...and when we arrived, I should have known something was wrong when the Manager rushed over to me. There was a really bad thunderstorm Friday night and there was some flooding in the alley. And, it rained in the party room. Everything wasn't lost. But, the diaper cake got wet and they tried to clean it up. And, I was mad. I was mad because I thought about all the work people put into the cake. I mean on the top of the cake were these hand crocheted booties for our little girl. And, they got wet. They weren't ruined but it was just the principle of it all. Derrick told me that on Monday, the ladies thought it was hilarious! But, at the time, I was really hot about it. The finger food...not that great. The cake was awesome!!!! A good time was had by all. Zoe was blessed with some wonderful gifts. I got to catch up with some family and friends and it was a nice event.
I'm 35 weeks. Starting next Monday, I will see the doctor every week. Zoe is starting to make her descent. I am excited...and a little scared. Only because I realize that in a matter of a few weeks, I will become a mommy to this little person. I will be instrumental in molding and shaping this little person. And, while I know its an adventure into the unknown and you really can't prepare for it...its a little scary :) Derrick, the insightful person that he is, had this revelation on Facebook, and it was like he put into words everything I had been feeling but was scared to talk about. He has a tendency to do that. I think that's part of the reason why I love him so. But, he has no idea how his words and the words of a few others, helped me. I felt like I had to try to be strong and hold how I felt in. I've done that a lot in life. But today, he truly made me realize that I don't have to do that anymore. What I do know is that Zoe is going to be loved and cared for. And, that I'm not doing this alone. And, that gives me comfort and strength. I have a loving husband who is there for both my daughter and me, a mother and a mother-in-law who are both willing to help out any way they can. A father and an other mom who are sure to be flying in and out of RDU more frequently as soon as Zoe arrives. I have a network of people who love this child so much already and she's not even here yet. I admit, we are blessed :) And, that makes the fear and the stress go away. So for these next 5 weeks, or more if lil Zoe deems it so, I am going to be extra happy because I can focus on the love I have for her and my family, and not worry so much. I can be the mommy that I want to be.
Bj :)
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